I haven't written in a while. Mainly because my mind was in a bad place and although I wanted to share, I didn't think a lot of it was appropriate. I have angry feelings towards some of my family, but airing those in a public forum where they don't get to tell their side, it's fair. There has also been all sorts of mixed emotions, feeling, and thoughts that I didn't know how to express. This is definitely the hardest thing I've gone through in this life so far and I would never wish it on my worst enemy. I have continued with my positive thinking challenge and so far it's been going great! Things in my life are changing for the better.
I quit my job!!!! And I start the new on on Friday. I honestly can't wait. I feel like it is the start of a whole new chapter of my life. A more grown up chapter. A more ambitious chapter. A chapter without my dad :( but that is ok. It's proving that I'm surviving the torture that is his disease.
I've also decided that I'm going to start training for a marathon and leave other things, personal things, in fate's hands. I decided that if I'm not a little selfish now and if I don't start living my life for me, then I'm going to regret this period in my life. And when my time comes to an end, I want to make sure I don't have any regrets. So I've started running and training again... I've run 5 days in a row for the first time in probably over a year!! It felt great! It felt like an accomplishment!
It's amazing how when you decide that you are going to have a new outlook, things really start changing and start changing quickly!! More to good things and fun things to come. And maybe I'll actually start posting pictures :)
